Saturday 18 February 2012

Compassion Shines Through Shadow



Guanyin: Goddess of Compassion!
You have shown me the way
To love myself
And thereby to love all

Here are my demons ...
Of Not-Good-Enough-ness
Of Not-Man-Enough-ness
My exhausting perfectionism
My gasping for the oxygen of approval
My affirmation addiction
My outraged sense of entitlement
To be-at least- engaged with


My fury at the unquestionable assumption
That fathers 'ought to' respond

To a son's overtures for affection
With nurturing love


(My music longed to be heard by him)

Shadow Faeries have poked their healing wands
At these raw wounds
And shown me how
To nurture and heal myself

I have embraced those shadow-casters
I have cuddled warmth
Into their cold shoulders

I stand tall and true
A Mushroom thriving
In the shade
And finally I see...

My Faerie Nature

Was cast into the shadows
By father, by peers
By Church and by State

And the righteous indignation
I feel towards anyone
With the temerity
To portray me
In an unfavorable light
'After all the effort
I've made to be nice
To be acceptable
To assimilate'

IS THE SHADOW I CAST

I now release the pain….


The shadows are no longer mine
And no matter how black is the darkness
I burn with the Fire of Love in my heart


And I am Light